PF: Considering the spider

Earlier this fall when I was at the marsh, I spied a spider, peering from a web constructed in the whirl of a milkweed leave. My pictures didn’t turn out, but I’ve thought about that spider again and again: There was something about it, its web, and it’s watchful stance. It seemed poised at the edge of advance and retreat. I could relate only too well.

Considering the spider

What does Spider think
as it poises itself there?
Is it rapt at fall’s advance,
at the golden autumn air?
Or does it sense its coming end…
the frailness of its lair?

©Molly Hogan

This week’s Poetry Friday is hosted by Karen Edmisten at her blog.

PS Here are a couple of other spiders I did manage to “capture” early this fall.

Early Bird Sale

I told myself earlier in the week that I wasn’t going to be able to go. I simply had too many things going on and couldn’t spare the time. I hadn’t really thought about it again. Or so I thought.

Then, early on Saturday morning, soon after I’d started writing, I glanced at my watch. 6:05 am.

Oh, the Early Bird Sale has started.

The thought instantly popped into my head. Clearly, I hadn’t fully submerged it.

What’s an Early Bird Sale you ask? Well, in a nutshell, it’s earlier opening hours at local stores with a generous discount and encouragement to wear your PJs as you shop. At my local bookstore it was 25% off all books from 6-9 am. Every year I choose a book for each family member for Christmas. The Early Bird Sale is the kickoff of my holiday shopping and one of my favorite parts of the holiday season. But this year I’d already decided not to go. I had a very busy weekend ahead with lots of plans and obligations.

Still…

My pen hovered.

I wavered.

Usually I spend time in advance of the sale reading reviews, pondering my options and enjoying creating a list. This year I cobbled together some ideas from a few trusted sources and was out the door half an hour after deciding to go. Actually, I’m not sure I ever fully decided. I just suddenly found myself still in my PJs, list in hand, getting out of my car in the parking lot, and feeling vaguely guilty and very excited.

I wandered into the store out of the chilly, dark morning and was greeted with light, warmth and the hubbub of bright voices and happy conversation. I immediately relaxed. This was where I wanted to be.

I started with new releases. The newest Stephen King was out, but I knew at least two of my family had already bought and read it. I kept an eye out for the titles I’d scribbled down. I looked at Staff Picks, picked up books, read blurbs, considered my options. As I wandered, I listened in to others’ conversations, chimed in a few times, touched the covers of “old friends” affectionately, and breathed in the intoxicating aroma of new books.

After I’d been there a little while, the owner approached me, “Can I help you find something? Oh! I see you have a list! What are you looking for?”

I then spent a delightful 20-30 minutes with her. I’d ask if she had a certain book and she’d say “Yes” or “No”. If they had it, she’d show me where to find it. But, really the fun started with the “No’s”, and especially the “No, but’s…”

“No, but have you read this one?”
or
“No, but I do have one that sounds similar…”
or
“No, but have you read that author’s last book?”

Or she’d tell me she hadn’t heard of a book I was looking for and ask me to tell her about it. I would and then my description would connect to other books, other authors, other sections of the store.

Last Friday I posted a prose and poem combo describing kids at a recent recess delighting in the flurry of autumn leaves falling in the breeze. They had whirled and twirled, stretching their hands out over their heads, trying to catch the leaves as they fell. They had been completely lost in the wonder of it all.

I felt a lot like that in the bookstore on Saturday morning. Immersed in book talk. Giddy with books and the potential of them all. Loving thinking about my family and the interests and nuances of each of them. Busy stretching out, trying to “catch” the perfect book choice and lost in the wonder of all those words. All those books.

When I left the store an hour or so later, I had a large bag brimming with books. I know I was smiling, and I’m pretty sure my face was glowing just like the kids’ faces at recess that day.

PF: Finding poetry in prose

This month Linda challenged our writing group to write a prose piece and find a poem in it. She offered a variety of options within that challenge, but I opted to go with the original basic prompt. Thanks, Linda, for the nudge to revisit this small moment at recess and find the poetry within it.

The breeze blew erratically in unpredictable puffs. With every gust, leaves flew off the tree in a crimson cloud, like a flock of birds, spinning and twirling away into the chilly air. Around the tree and across the fields and playground, children played. Some kicked around a soccer ball. Some were involved in an intense game of kickball. Others played chase or pumped themselves high into the achingly blue sky on swings. And some twirled and swirled beneath the tree, like the leaves themselves. Their hands were outstretched, reaching to catch the falling leaves. Leaves falling like rain onto their heads, into their hands, and onto the ground around them. They spun and spun, their faces lit with joy and autumn sun. And they laughed at the unexpected wonder of it all.

Soaring

Like a flock of birds
or falling leaves
children
twirl
swirl
their wonder-washed faces
shiny and bright
giddy with autumn joy

©Molly Hogan

Click on the links below to see how the other Inklings met this challenge:
Linda Mitchell
Margaret Simon
Heidi Mordhorst
MaryLee Hahn
Catherine Flynn

This week’s Poetry Friday is hosted by Buffy Silverman at her blog.

PF: What has become ordinary

Recently Mary Lee Hahn shared a prompt from Padraig O’Tuama’s newsletter with our writing group. It invited the writer to consider something that had become ordinary. It asked a series of numbered questions and then directed you to put those questions in the correct order to create a pantuom. In an irony that I really am not appreciating, I chose to address the violence that is epidemic in our country and the world at large. Earlier this week, this was just another exercise in my writing notebook, written in my safe little bubble, where I tried to make sense of our country’s love affair with guns and violence and humanity’s inhumanity and how we can become numb to it all. I wasn’t planning on finishing it or on sharing it. But today I did just that.

Because yesterday it all got a bit more real. Because I live in Maine. And in Lewiston, Maine, less than 20 miles away from my home, 18 people were killed last night and 13 wounded at a bar and at a bowling alley. Where a youth league was bowling. And at this time there’s still a massive manhunt underway. And families are shattered. And my school was closed today (along with many others) while families in that community were ordered to shelter in place. And I wondered how parents were explaining this all to their children. To my students. And how would I answer the inevitable questions when we (and when will we?) return to school. And the killer lived in the town adjacent to mine. And I just can’t wrap my head around this. And late this afternoon I received a blaring emergency public service announcement extending the shelter in place order to my town. And now instead of looking for deer out the window, I’m looking for a killer. Which I know is ridiculous, but still I catch myself glancing out again and again. And soon (when?) I’ll return to my second grade classroom, where we’ll try to get things back to normal. In the same place we practice for just this type of scenario. And how is that normal? And I feel so heartbroken and so angry and so damned impotent.

Just Another Day in the Good Old USA

Day starts…the somber newscaster spills the latest body count
disaster unfolds across our planet
I barely notice grief’s newest location
a mass shooting here. there. war. war. war.

Disaster unfolds across our planet
we are monster makers
a mass shooting here.  there. war. war. war.
we breed hate and disaster

We are monster makers
The television pulses with gunshots and bloodshed
we breed hate and disaster
Some days I don’t even wince at the death toll

The television pulses with gunshots and bloodshed
I barely notice grief’s newest location
Some days I don’t even wince at the death toll
Day starts…the somber newscaster spills the latest body count

©Molly Hogan

Today, I have definitely noticed grief’s newest location.

My heart goes out to all who have lost loved ones to violence in Lewiston, Maine and throughout the world, and I hope with every ounce of my being that this local situation ends without further tragedy.

This week’s Poetry Friday is hosted by Carol Labuzetta at her blog, The Apples in My Orchard.

PF: Poemtober

I’ve been dabbling in my notebook with Inktober’s prompts this month. Inktober was a challenge first issued to visual artists to create drawings in response to particular words each day in October. Poets, always primed to see a writing possibility, grabbed the words and created a “Poemtober” challenge instead. I’ve played along for quite a few years now. It’s low stakes fun 🙂 I do take some liberties with the words, altering their form if that works better for me. In case you’re interested, here are the prompt words:

Oct. 6–golden

As summer exits
spruced-up trees applaud
toss confetti
into drifts
of autumn
gold

©Molly Hogan

October 9–bounce

Small Tragedy

A cage of balls,
bright buoyant spheres,
captive behind metal bars.
So eager to bounce
and play!
Forlorn and
locked away…

©Molly Hogan

This week’s Poetry Friday Roundup is hosted by Catherine Flynn who’s sharing a review of Irene Latham’s recent release and a wonderful original poem. Click to visit her blog, Reading to the Core.

PF: Path

“Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.”
Robert Frost

Mary Lee posed our intriguing Inklings challenge this month. She invited us to consider visual frameworks from this site and then to respond to one that resonated with us. My first draft from early in September was off-the-cuff, but heartfelt.

August arrives
the bell rings
We begin

©Molly Hogan

That felt a bit flippant though, and I wanted to dig in a bit more. In my own life I’ve recently been coming back again and again to the idea of paths. I’ve been noticing how often I take photos of paths–in the woods, along a river, on the beach, etc. Something about a path clearly intrigues me, so I searched the visual framework site and found the image below.

I’m not sure the image resonates with me so much here as the word does, so I kind of came at this all backward. Thinking of paths made me think of choices and reminded me of Frost’s poem, which I quoted above. His poem represents more of the crossroads and initial choice, but my thoughts and images are more centered around walking along a certain path that’s already been chosen. At any rate, here’s the end result of all these mental peregrinations. It feels unfinished and still needs a strong title (shocker!) but it’s what was there when I came up for air and realized it was Friday already.


I’m not so sure about Robert Frost
and his path less traveled
In truth
I feel a bit defensive
as I step along
the well-trod path before me
stopping to enjoy the view
taking some side trips and
navigating as best as I can

There’s much to be said
for blazing a new path
and I’d never be so bold
as to challenge Frost
but still…
Isn’t there value
in traveling a well-worn path?
In noticing
and nourishing
the wonder
nascent
within the known?

©Molly Hogan

If you’re interested in seeing what the other Inklings did with this challenge, visit the links below:

Heidi Mordhorst
Catherine Flynn
Margaret Simon
Linda Mitchell
Mary Lee Hahn

This week’s Poetry Friday Roundup is hosted by Matt Forrest Esenwine at his blog, Radio, Rhythm & Rhyme. He’s sharing all sorts of great news, especially the release of his newest book. Make sure to check it out!

PF: Epistolary Poetry

Last spring I signed up to participate in the WriteME Project, a pilot project develop by Maine’s Poet Laureate, Julia Bouwsma, to connect writers across Maine via epistolary poems. Everyone was matched with a pen pal in June and encouraged to share at least 3 exchanges of letters across the summer. It was pretty open-ended and up to partners to determine how to proceed. At the end of the summer the organizers asked partners to share their poems and feedback about how the project worked or didn’t work for them.

My partner and I touched base in June via e-mail and opted to begin our exchange via snail mail. We decided I would send the first letter. I found it so challenging to figure out how to write the first letter. What does one to a stranger!? I’m not sure I ever thought before about what an intimate form letters are. Once we got up and going it became a bit easier. Over the course of the summer, we switched to e-mail to manage time a bit better, and we finished up our exchange of three letters early in August.

Here are a few sections from my letters:

late June 2023 (from my initial letter)
Once I saw a tomato plant growing through a crack in the sidewalk. Right in the middle of New York City. It stopped me in my tracks. Somehow, while I watched, everyone stepped around it. At least while I was there. I like to think it bore fruit eventually, though perhaps its fruit was more subtle than a red tomato.

And I wonder about this exchange of letters. These seeds we’re planting. What fruit will they bear?

“I look outside my window, a view that endlessly pulls me outside myself and both into and away from my writing. Atop the tightly furled hydrangea buds, I spy a long, thin worm, like an extension of green, grasping the plant at one end and waving about. It must be seeking another path, a way forward on some intersecting branch or adjacent leaf. I watch it move from one end of the blossom to the other, fruitlessly repeating its graceful undulating efforts. 

As summer begins, with its break from the relentless pace of the school year, I think about the expanse of time and space before me, and about this challenge. Perhaps I am a bit like that thin worm, flailing about, trying to find my way forward. Perhaps the value is in the constant dance, the quest, not necessarily in attaining a precise destination. How many times do I need to learn to value process over product?”

And a piece from another letter:
July 18, 2023
….

Outside my sister’s house,
granite curves into steps
climbs into walls
and edges gardens and woodland paths.
It’s laced with pale starbursts of lichen,
swaths of pillowed moss,
fronded fern shadows.

Intermingled, they read like hieroglyphics
a mysterious secret language.

Instead of the movement of water,
I ponder the evidence of time passing
in ripples grown across granite boulders.

Island time is generous.

Last night there was a celebratory Zoom. Along with several other partnerships, my partner and I were asked to share some of our exchange of letters and any takeaways we had. I’m paraphrasing here, but Julia Bouwsma began the evening by saying that to her, poetry is the work of living. We don’t know where we’re going, she said, but we’re trying things out. We’re experimenting. It’s all about listening and connection.

It was a lovely evening and highlighted the enthusiasm and creativity of other poets across the state. Participants wowed me again and again with their words and their artistry and creativity–handmade paper, painted letters and such a sense of fun–a poem written inside a wooden Brie cheese container! One writer responded to her partner’s first poem with a poem using only words from the poem she’d received. It was awesome!

I’m so glad I participated, and I learned a lot through the experience. I really enjoyed having my words in conversation with someone else. Over time, our letters developed somewhat organically, embracing water imagery and a deep reverence for nature.

Still, listening to others share, I realized that I had missed an opportunity. While I enjoyed writing the letters and reading those I received, over the summer I somehow fell into thinking of them as an obligation, not an opportunity. Listening to others, I heard the play, the fun, and/or the real sense of deep connection. I think back to my initial letter to my pen pal, in which I asked, “How many times do I need to learn to value process over product?” Sometimes I worry so much about how what I do will be received, that I hesitate to just go for it. So, I completed our exchange, but I think it was more by following the “letter” of the project, so to speak, than by embracing its spirit. A lost opportunity to take some risks, to break some rules, to have some fun.

I suspect the project will be offered again this coming year, and I was so inspired by what I heard and saw last night, that I’m on board to try again. This time, I hope to enter in with a spirit of reckless fun and wild poetic abandon!

Stay tuned.

This week’s Poetry Friday Roundup is hosted by Rose Cappelli at Imagine the Possibilities.

A Garden in Disarray

A Garden in Disarray

I haven’t the heart
to pull the volunteers
cluttering my garden
with honeyed scent and
firecracker sparks of pink,
white and lavender

I know they’ve taken over–
smothering the lavender,
crowding out the delphinium and
the cranesbill geranium

Still, they grow so fiercely
so tenaciously
blossoming with such wild extravagance–
almost generous in their invasion

I haven’t the heart
to pull them out–
even as I mourn 
what once 
was there

©Molly Hogan, draft

This week’s Poetry Friday Roundup is hosted by Amy Ludwig Vanderwater at her blog, The Poem Farm. Be sure to stop by and visit!

Tuning In

Every time I drive down the freeway, there’s a certain spot I look toward. It’s a bend in a river, where the water makes a sharp turn and flows away from the road and into the green-shadowed forest. The water ripples with current when rain has been frequent, and sometimes the level is low and the current is sluggish, but either way, I always look. Because every so often, maybe five times in 15 years, I’ve seen a great blue heron there.

Then there’s the gravel drive that curves away from our road and down into the woods. It’s about 3 or 4 miles down the road from my house, but I pass it on my drive into town. Once I saw a fox there. Just once. It was sleek. Red. Still. We stared at each other for a long moment, and then it flashed, like a comet, down the driveway and out of sight. So every time I drive by, I look. Because once in 15 years, I saw it. And I mean, who knows? Maybe I’ll see it again.

On the edge of the bay in town is a dead tree that serves as an eagle and osprey magnet. My husband and I both check it out every time we drive by. More often than not, one of those two birds is perched there. An unlikely avian bud at the top of the skeletal tree. It never fails to delight us.

I’ve been thinking a lot about that. About how I look to these places, and so many others, that have shown their potential. About how once I know that something might happen, I stay tuned, hoping to experience it again.

It occurs to me that while I do this in my “free time”, I’m not always as consistent at doing this within my classroom. With the beginning-of-the-year inundation or at other especially hectic times, it can be easy to look for what’s missing or what’s amiss, rather than priming myself to see the wonderful things that are there. Or the potential of what might be there. And if I’m not looking, I might miss them. Right?

On Thursday, driving home after my first week at school, I turned to look at the river. It really didn’t matter if I saw a heron or not. What mattered is that I was looking. And on that day, I did see one, standing tall at the edge of the river, aglow in the low-laying sun. But even if I hadn’t, I wouldn’t have been disappointed, and I still would have kept looking. And someday, I would have seen one again. Or perhaps something else.

Here’s to staying tuned to the possible.