SOLC Day 10: Checking Out

March 2022 SOLC–Day 10
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Driving home from school yesterday afternoon, I glanced down at the clock.

5pm.

Ok, so I’ll get home around 5:30. Hmmmm. Would it be that bad if I just go to sleep when I get home?

I wasn’t kidding. Crawling into my bed sounded like the best thing I could imagine. I was 100% beat. No particular new reason. Just feeling the weight of the world. Ready to check out and reboot.

I continued musing. Even if I wake up in the middle of the night, so what? Tomorrow’s only one day to get through and then Friday’s a PD day. I could make it. It might not be pretty but I could do it.

I drove down the long hill toward the river. At the stop sign at the bottom of the hill a police cruiser with lights flashing blocked the road to the right. He waved me through to the left. As I turned, I saw several other sets of flashing lights in the distance. Clearly there had been an accident, and it looked like it must have been a bad one. My heart went out to those involved. Continuing unscathed on my way, I felt thankful but also oddly vulnerable.

How quickly someone’s day or even life can be upended.

And I was still utterly exhausted.

I got home and unpacked my bags. Did a little of this. A little of that. I tried to convince myself to stay up. Failed. Ultimately, I couldn’t really think of any good reason to do so.

At 6 pm I headed up to bed.

Sometimes you just need to check out.

20 thoughts on “SOLC Day 10: Checking Out

  1. Isn’t it the truth? I felt your vulnerability before you named it in your narrative. You capture the feeling of so many these days, exhausted.

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  2. You are right – there are days that just beg us to please come to bed and turn out the light. Yesterday sure was one for you, and I hope the people were okay. The contrast of the wreck with all of those feelings that happen when we see one magnetized and magnified the comfort of curling up in bed. I hope you get through the day fully recharged.

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  3. humbleswede says:

    This just does what a daily slice should do. It captures the mood of a day and the condition of the writer in a moment. The fatigue, the concern, and the let’s just call it a day. I really like the way you did this. I hope it recharged you.

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  4. Absolutely! Rest is so important to our ability to keep doing what we do. Thanks for the nice piece that highlighted this importance.

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  5. I’ve definitely been there lately now that my cat has been waking us up multiple times in the night. Glad you decided to just pass out because it can be very necessary

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  6. TLC says:

    I can connect to this feeling. I’ve looked at the clock reading a much earlier time than it feels and said to my family- is it bad if I go to bed now?

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  7. kd0602 says:

    Oooooh! That early “check out” sounds lovely! Sometimes we just need to do what our body needs. Glad you got some extra sleep.

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  8. I so long for those days when sleep could happen at any time; what freedom I didn’t realize I had -didn’t truly appreciate until I had kids…
    So, my friend, sleep for the both of us! Enjoy your dreams! 😴

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  9. Hope you got a good night’s rest!

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  10. Nice job following your Zen! Seems like a great decision to me!

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