March 2018 SOLC–Day 4
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One of the bonuses of small town post offices is that the line is rarely long. On this particular Saturday morning, other than the woman being waited on, there was only one man in line in front of me. He was somewhat disheveled, gray haired and bearded, wearing well-worn jeans. As the first customer gathered up her stamps and moved away, he stepped forward to the counter.

“Do you have the Wyeth stamps?” he asked. My ears perked up. Wyeth stamps?

“Let me see.” The clerk riffled through her drawer and then pulled out a sheet of stamps. “Here you go,” she said, handing them to him.

“What’s your favorite?” he asked her, reaching out to take the sheet. “The cow?”

“No,” she said. “I’m not sure. I have a print of the dog on a white bed at home. But that one’s not here.”

“Oh, I love that one,” I chimed in.

The man shifted to the side to include me in the conversation. “Have you ever seen the one with a skiff pulled up on shore?” he asked us. “And there’s a house up over the knoll…”

We both shook our heads, unfamiliar with that particular painting.

“It’s called Teel’s Island,” he said. “It’s a watercolor.”

We spent the next several minutes discussing Andrew Wyeth, the Farnsworth museum, the Olsen house and our favorite Wyeth paintings. Three strangers in a rural Maine post office on a Saturday morning. Then the man paid for his stamps and left. I requested and paid for my own sheet of Wyeth stamps and went on my way.

Later that day, I went online and did a quick google search for Teel’s Island. The image, quintessential Wyeth, filled the screen. There was the skiff the man had mentioned…the knoll…the house–Each detail adding to a whole that was considerably greater than its parts. I now count it among my favorites.

Clearly, there’s more than one bonus to small town post offices.

Teel’s Island by Andrew Wyeth, 1954

Note: A big shout out to Cindy at Mainer in Training. Thanks, Cindy! Her wonderful recent slice, Christina’s World, reminded me of this moment. If you have a chance, be sure to stop by and check it out!

March 2018 SOLC–Day 3
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Tables lined the hallway, covered with an assortment of paper backs and picture books from last night’s Read Across America celebration. As we walked by on our way to recess, my fourth graders eyed the books. K started giggling, nudged her friend and pointed to the first word in a large hardcover titled “Dick and Jane and Friends.”  Her friend smiled but didn’t respond much.

As we exited the building, K approached me. “Mrs. Hogan, one of the books back there had the “d” word on the cover!”

I felt fortunate that I actually knew what she was talking about.

“Yup,” I said, “That’s a name. It’s actually a nickname for Richard.”

“What!?!” she cried. Her face was a mirror of astonishment with “You have to be kidding me!” written all over it.

“Yeah,” her friend chimed in, “I have an uncle with that name.”

“I have an Uncle Dick, too,” I added.

K. looked back and forth between the two of us skeptically, weighing whether to believe us or not.

“Well,” she finally announced emphatically, “If I ever have a child and name him Richard, I am NEVER EVER going to use that nickname for him!”

Then she swept outside for recess.  I laughed the whole way back to the classroom.

This week marked the official end of Laura Shovan’s February Poetry Project. Heading back to school after break and starting up the Slice of Life Challenge this week impacted my poetry writing, and not for the better.  Here are a couple of my ekphrastic poems from the past week. Considering how much I’ve enjoyed this month, I expect they won’t be my last!

Moon Song Connection

We are each alone
in our wooden crafts
Adrift on textured blue seas
our stories wax and wane
transform
Multiple washes
seep into our fabric
From shadow and light
patterns emerge

When you find your own
true keeper color
within your tilted craft
turn your face to the heavens
then croon your moonlit melody
fling the luminous notes of your life song
with wild abandon
skip them across the waves
to linger in salty breezes
until they reach,
perhaps,
another solitary voyager
in his own wooden craft
on his own textured blue sea
A connection as fragile
and magical
as a moonbeam

M. Hogan (c) 2018
inspired by the batik “Moon Song”
created by Lisa Kattenbraker

Indian Cotton Summer

Watching the young girls
on the beach
she remembered
long-ago languid days
of sun-kissed promise
endless beach walks—
secrets shared and
futures planned—
and the soft swish of
her Indian cotton skirt
on her sand-flecked shins
Where had it gone?
Was it packed away
in a box somewhere?
Or had it simply disappeared
like so many other things—
some barely remembered
and others
keenly missed

M. Hogan (c) 2018
Acrylic on newsprint
by Laura Laughlin

This week’s Poetry Friday Roundup is hosted by Renée LaTulippe at her blog, No Water River. She’s highlighting poet extraordinaire, Michelle Heidenrich Barnes. Be sure to stop by and visit!

Fish swim across the woven cotton. Faded whites on a deep aquatic blue. Somehow the dress has moved with me from place to place, year after year, surfacing periodically. I’d almost forgotten about it until now, when my daughter, Adeline, pulls it from the depths of her closet.

“Mom, do you want to keep this?”

I turn to face her, catching sight of the dress.

A small “Oh!” escapes me. Then I gather myself. “I don’t know,” I say. “It seems kinda silly, really. I’ve just been holding onto it for all these years. I don’t think I’ve even worn it.”

“Didn’t your mom make this?” she asked

“Yeah.”

“Well, does it fit you?”

“I don’t know. I think I tried it on years ago and it was a little tight. I’m not really sure.”

“Try it on,” she urges, handing me the dress.

I take it from her and go to my room, holding it in my hands. Wow. This dress must be around 40 years old. So long ago, my mom’s hands chose this fabric, cut the patterned pieces and stitched the cloth into this final garment. I have a vague memory of her wearing it–tan skin against the batik, a flash of a smile, frosted hair– but I’m not sure if it’s real or imagined.

I slip out of my clothes and pull the dress on over my head, tugging it down to slide over my hips. I look in the mirror, turn to one side and then to the other. It fits snugly through the bodice, but falls loosely from the waist to my ankles, swaying about my legs. It’s a simple cut, timeless.

I return to Addie’s room.

“What do you think?” I ask. Again, I turn from side to side, the full skirt of the dress swishing.

“It’s cute,” she says. “You should keep it.”

I look at my daughter in the midst of her really-moving-out-for-good room cleaning. My daughter who never met the grandmother who created this dress. How interesting that it reappeared today, on the eve of her departure.

Again, I touch the fabric, taking comfort from its soft cotton and from its connection. Past–present–future. Woven together in this moment.

Of course I’m going to keep it.

March 2018 SOLC–Day 1
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“I gave it to you,” the man insisted to the bartender. His belligerent tone caught my ear, and I glanced over.

“No,” the bartender said, calmly,  “I ran your card through the machine and then gave it right back to you.”

“No. You. Did. Not.” he stated emphatically, his voice raising slightly with each word. He was older, well-dressed, and visibly irate.  The tension in the air was palpable. The few customers in the cafe shifted in line and glanced at each other uneasily.

He continued, spitting words like shrapnel, “You asked me if I wanted to start a tab and I didn’t want to give it to you but I did. I told you the card was cracked at the bottom and to be careful.”

The bartender looked around her as he spoke, lifting menus and other small items, double checking. “It’s not here,” she said again.

After a few more protests and angry complaints, the man retreated to his table at the far side of the room. His group began pushing back chairs and putting on their coats, apparently heading to the 7 pm documentary showing in the attached cinema. The rumble of his irritation buzzed audibly in the room and I imagined he was sharing his outrage with his dinner companions. There was a pause and then I heard a faint, more moderately toned, “Where did you find it?”

“I think he found his card,” I said to the bartender as I ordered my tea.

“That’s good,” she said. She didn’t even roll her eyes. Class act.

I wondered if the man would come over and apologize, though clearly he wasn’t in a rush to do so. After a few minutes passed, I realized I might have misconstrued what I’d heard. Perhaps he hadn’t found his card after all. He continued to talk with his companions. I paid and gathered my change and tea, and headed to my group’s table.

A few minutes later, I noticed the man was at the bar again, talking to the bartender.

“That’s ok,” I heard her say. “Not a problem.”

Once again, I admired her graciousness (and wondered if she was repeating “The customer is always right” in her head over and over). I also wondered what exactly the man was apologizing for. I suspect he was apologizing for insisting she had his card although she did not. From what I overheard, it sounded more like he was excusing his mistake, rather than really apologizing for his words or his behavior.  He clearly was not apologizing for how he spoke to her. Did he even recognize how rude he had been? How berating and aggressive his tone was?

There were two players in this scene—the bartender and the man. One problem—the missing card. They each chose how to respond. She clearly took the high road. He didn’t. Maybe he’d had a bad day. Maybe something else was going on. But, the bottom line is that he was far more concerned about his credit card and its potential loss and his emotional response to that than he was about how he chose to interact with another human being. In my book, that’s a huge problem. It’s okay to be mad. It’s okay to be frustrated. It’s not ok to splash your emotional upset over others without any consideration. Especially over a missing credit card. It just doesn’t work that way. Or at least it shouldn’t.

K. wandered up to my desk at the beginning of the day. She touched a tulip blossom.

“Oh, these are pretty! Why do you have flowers?”

“Mrs. V. gave them to me for my birthday,” I replied.

“It’s your birthday?” she asked, looking at me incredulously.

“Yes,” I said.

“You’ve got to tell everyone!” she insisted.

I laughed. “It’s not a secret,” I said, “but I don’t think I need to announce it.”

She stared at me for a long moment. Clearly this idea defied comprehension. “How old are you?” she finally asked.

“51.”

“Oh,” she said. Then she repeated, “You’ve got to tell everyone it’s your birthday! Are you going to tell them at morning meeting?”

“Probably not,” I said, then laughed again at the expression on her face.

Later that morning after I walked my class out to recess, I returned to the room and sat down at my desk. There atop my stack of papers was a homemade birthday card. The cover was decorated with a picture of a cake emblazoned with the number 51. Inside was a cute drawing of a cat. Smiling, I remembered snack time and K asking me “casually” about my favorite animal. How did she manage to make that card without me noticing?

Heading back from lunch, I thanked her, “K. I love my card–especially the cat! Thank you so much!”

She beamed. Then she glanced at me sideways and confided, “I might have told a few people about your birthday.”

By the end of the day a small collection of surreptitiously created cards was piled on my desk. A sweet birthday surprise. Thanks, K!

I went a bit dark with Laura Purdie Salas’s 15 Words or Less Poetry prompt this week. She shared a picture of an adorable penguin sugar cookie:

Photo credit to Laura Purdie Salas

Reminded of the catastrophic penguin breeding colony collapse I read about this past fall (here), I responded with this:

In Antarctica…

Tens of thousands
of Adélie chicks
starve and perish
while we enjoy
our frosted cookies

M. Hogan (c) 2018

“Loud are the thunder drums in the tents of the mountains.
Oh, long, long
Have we eaten chia seeds
and dried deer’s flesh of the summer killing.
We are tired of our huts
and the smoky smell of our clothing.
We are sick with the desire for the sun
And the grass on the mountain.”
–  Paiute Late Winter Song

We had a brief day of teasing spring-like weather yesterday. Dense fog finally lifted to reveal peeks of sunshine and patches of blue sky and temperatures rose into the 60s!  As I noted last week, February feels heavy this year and I’m looking forward to the calendar turning into March. I am indeed “sick with the desire for the sun.”

I’ve had loads of writing time this week, but have felt stymied–lots of false starts and roadblocks and difficulty tapping into anything that feels right. I’m still plugging away at Laura Shovan’s February Daily Ekphrastic Poem Project. It’s hard to believe that it ends next week!

It was my turn to share art this past Sunday and I shared this untitled painting by an unknown artist. Reading the poetic responses was a highlight of my week. I plan to print them all out and make a small booklet to place beneath the painting for all visitors to enjoy. I’m also going to share them with my students so they can see how many different directions writers can take from one prompt. Thanks to everyone who responded!

Here are my responses to two sculpture prompts from the week:

Oh, Olaf the Dandy
was a Viking much feared
though his biggest concerns
were his mustache and beard
He fretted in battle
that someone might shear him
So fought with great vigor
when enemies neared him

The stories grew daily
his feats legendary
He fought like a madman
to keep his face hairy
And when the war ended
to his sweetheart he sped
proposed that they marry
and here’s what she said:

Oh Olaf, I love you
you bold Viking knave
but ere we can marry
you simply must shave!

M. Hogan (c) 2018

I still miss your slumber weight
heavy in my arms
your downy head resting on my shoulder
your warm, milky breath
and that achingly sweet hollow
at the base of your neck
so ripe for kisses

Sometimes in the grocery store line
I catch myself,
a jug of Tide balanced on my hip,
swaying to and fro
in that age-old soothing motion

I wonder, is the gorilla sometimes
as puzzled by her empty back
as I am by my empty arms?
Does she still alter her gait
for a baby she no longer carries?

M. Hogan (c) 2018

To brighten up these final days of February, take some time to visit this week’s Poetry Friday Roundup. It’s hosted by Elizabeth Steinglass at her blog where she’s sharing her wonderful poem “Why I’m Here” and its inspirations.

“Spring’s coming,” I announced happily.

“Molly,” Kurt replied in his patient voice, “it’s February.”

“Yeah, but it’s getting closer. I can tell!”

“Uh-huh,” he responded.

“Remember I told you how warm the sun was when I went running Sunday?”

He merely looked at me.

“And the finches! We haven’t had finches on our feeders in ages. Today there were three of them! Three!”

“Molly,” he repeated, “It’s February. In Maine. Spring is far, far away.”

“I think we’re turning a corner,” I insisted.

“Uh-huh.”

I’m not sure what got into me yesterday, but I started cleaning out the upstairs linen closet. I pulled everything out into a jumbled pile of flannel and cotton and began matching up sets like pairs of socks. After a while, just like with socks, it became evident there were some incomplete sets. I decided to check the seldom-used downstairs linen closet.

Once I got started down there, I began wreaking havoc, pulling out sheets willy-nilly, triumphantly making a stack of the items to complete the upstairs sets. It was all going beautifully until I yanked on a sheet and a small yellowish item rolled across the wooden shelf.

What’s that? I wondered. I picked it up and brought it closer to my face to peer at it. Recognition hit quickly and unpleasantly. Ew! It’s a mouse head! (Well, to be more precise, a mouse skull.) How long has that been here?!?

“Ewwwww! Kurt, there’s a mouse skull in the cupboard,” I called into the living room.

He grunted.

“Did you hear me?” I asked.

“Yeah,” he grunted again.

Gingerly I pulled out a few more linens, realizing that laundry with hot water was going to the top of my to-do list. Then, nestled next to the striped twin sheet set, there it was–the rest of the body. A complete skeleton with long tail. Intact (other than the head/skull). In my linen cupboard.

“Kurt, there’s a complete skeleton in the closet.”

“Yeah.”

“A complete skeleton!” I repeated. “There’s an entirely complete skeleton in the closet!”

“Yeah, a Halloween one, right?” he asked.

What?! Clearly the man does not listen to me.

“No! It’s an entire mouse skeleton–right in the sheets!”

“Oh,” he said again, thoroughly unimpressed. “I thought there was one of those Halloween skeletons in there.”

What the heck is he talking about? 

“How long has it been there?” I wondered aloud. “I mean I don’t mind the occasional skeleton under the stove or in the wall, but this is pretty disgusting.”

“We live in an old house, ” he said. “It happens.”

“I don’t know. I think maybe we need to clean more,” I announced. He laughed and laughed and laughed.

Looking for a different reaction, I snapped a quick photo to send to my neat-freakish sister. I prefaced it with this comment: “So, I was cleaning out the linen closets–matching sheets, etc…And I think maybe I need to do this more often…Because this…”

But, when it comes down to it, public embarrassment vs. a slice topic. Well, duh! That’s a no brainer!